Author: lemoons2000

Hi Paula,

How are you doing? I’m back again.

I know you may have some doubts that I may not come this year as your dad ever mentioned. But I tried my best to arrange this trip tonight. However, it’s sadly this has to be my last visit to you because you grow up. You will be 11 next Feb, right? You are no longer a little girl anymore. There’s a rule in Santa Claus Village that Santa Claus will never deliver gifts to children older than 10! I must follow the rule. But don’t worry. From next year, your mum and dad will send you gifts on behalf of me on the same Christmas Eve. As to me, I will still be very busy to send gifts to the little boys and girls younger than 10. You know there’re millions of babies born in this world every year.

I quickly went through your achievements this year before I rode on my sled. The many number ones surprised me again! I’m so proud of you! And I did see you made big progress on taking care of yourself, making plans by yourself and doing things per the plans. Keep going and you will do better! Now I want to share you my secret of “success” as my best gift to you other than any other physical gifts. It’s quite simple: 1, setup the goal, 2, make plan, 3, act on the plan, 4, take feedback and repeat 2-4 until you achieve the goal. Isn’t it simple? The key to make this work is persistence. I believe you can!

Well, I have to say goodbye. I hope you can visit my village some day when you can travel alone far away. I’ll be right there waiting for you.

Merry Christmas and happy New Year!

Yours, Santa Claus

Dec 24, 2018

十岁生日会上，回顾着孩子们稚嫩可爱的成长照片，看着孩子们认真地写下成长心愿，听着孩子们稚气未脱的成长誓言，不由得心潮澎湃，感慨万千。回首十年前的那天，小小婴儿呱呱坠地，努力睁开眼睛渴望认识这个世界，这一切仿佛就在昨天。十年弹指一挥间，孩子已渐渐长大，从襁褓到爬行，从爬行到行走，从行走到奔跑；从牙牙学语到初背唐诗，从初背唐诗到阅读名著；从一切靠爸爸妈妈，到自己的事自己做，孩子渐渐成长为一个聪明、活泼、有思想、有见解的小小少年。这场盛大的生日会，就像一艘平稳的游轮，载着孩子、家长和老师们，畅游在爱与被爱的海洋；就像时光隧道中的一道闪电，照亮你成长岁月中的点点滴滴；就像飞往春天的雁群停下来喝口水、歇歇脚，再展翅高飞，迎接明天的暴雨或骄阳！孩子啊，未来在你脚下，爸爸妈妈和老师，会引领着你、陪伴着你，直到你长大、独立、自强！加油，孩子，你是你自己的希望！

Ok，这是妈妈写了一半甩给我的作业，说班主任马上要。好吧，我接力。最后一个比喻愣是下楼走了两圈才憋出来滴….

Today could be the very critical moment in the history of China. Where will you go China?

Hey Dear Paula,

How are you? I’m back. It’s been a while since I came over to see you in January this year. Of course, you were in a good dream that night so I left you a letter. I believe you’ve completely read through it with some little help from your daddy. I told you that my nine deer had a long vacation after the crazy Christmas Eve last year. They are energetic again tonight! So am I. Aha!

I’m pretty sure you are deserved to get some gifts tonight because of all the excellent jobs you have done. You didn’t surprise me that you won the first prizes of Piano and Language Performance again this year. But you surprised me that your Language Performance got into the top 10 of the city! What a fabulous achievement! Do you know how much I like to hear you playing the piano? I like Sakura most. It always reminds me the beautiful sakura trees and flowers in Japan. Oh yes, your English and math are getting better and better. I know you like Pop English. That’s great! Keep going! It’s true that math is always like a tough monster. But I saw your progress. You beat most of the homework immediately right after you came home from the class. That’s really a good habit and don’t drop it. Now you can recite many beautiful poems. You read many good books. You learned basic badminton skills. You even started to learn singing. What a busy year! Shouldn’t you be proud of yourself? Shouldn’t you trust yourself? Shouldn’t you thank your mummy for her accompanying? Tell you a secret, your mummy and daddy actually think you are excellent even though they are always critical to you. That’s simply because they want you more excellent. Trust me, all the parents do.

But (there’s always a but after all the good things) you failed the ABRSM music theory exam. And your Chinese composition is far away from excellence. Think about why you failed. Is it because you didn’t spend much time on it and lacked of practice? We all know time is flying quickly. Only the faster runner can catch it up. I encourage you do things faster so you can earn more time. The key of doing things faster is concentration. Frankly you made some progress on this but still not enough. I hope you can put this on the top of all my good wishes to you in the next year. Do you agree? Great! Now my 2^nd wish is to expect you can manage your stuffs on your own. You will be 10 soon. You are no longer a little girl anymore. You cannot always depend on your parents. I believe you have the capability to manage your stuffs on you own. Remember, TIME is the most valuable thing among all your stuffs.

Well, I do have other 10 more wishes to you but I have to go and visit other kids. Check out what you wrote down on the back of the door of your room. They are all your wishes, also mine. Now enjoy your new gift. Keep in mind you are an excellent girl and you can do things faster and better. I’ll be very happy to come over again on the next Christmas Eve, probably with another gift!

Merry Christmas and happy New Year!

Santa Claus

Dec 24, 2017

Dear Paula,

Guess who I am? Aha, I bet you won’t know until you read this letter slowly and carefully. I visited you in the past 8 years on Christmas Eve. Sorry, it should be 7 years because I didn’t come on the very last Christmas Eve, because…I guess you know the reason, right? Of course, you were always in good dreams when I visited you.

I remember I have told your father in his dream one night that you may also get a gift IF you are doing well. Well, now I’m glad to see that you have done something awesome in the past year. You won the first prizes of Piano and Language Performance in the middle of the year. You won the five-star prize of calculation match of XueErSi. You passed the fifth degree of Piano ABRSM – terrific! You got 9.2 scores in final exam of Language Performance. You even got 100+20 scores in final exam of maths. Look! So many achievements you got in the past year. You should be proud of yourself! Your mother and father should be proud of you too!

I would suggest your father send the Lego in his luggage to you instead of sending it to his colleague because of what you have done (he can buy another one to his colleague, right?). I’m so sorry that my deer are taking a long vacation after the hard working in last Christmas Eve so I really can’t visit and send you the gift by myself. I hope you accept my apology.

I promise I will send you a new gift in the next Christmas Eve personally if you continue doing well. That means you should not only continue what you are doing well, but also improve some areas. For example, focusing when doing things, never mad at anyone, always polite, brave to raise the hand and answer the question in the class, reading more meaningful books, having the sense of time, being able to manage your personal matters, knowing what the most important things are, and, trying to help your mother and father. Wow, sounds so many things to improve! Don’t worry, I will see any progress you make, your mother and father will see too. A big achievement always comes from small improvements.

Come on Paula! Trust yourself! I believe you will be doing well. YOU ARE EXCELLENT!

Your Sincerely
Santa Claus

Jan 11, 2017

今天全国严重雾霾，成都、北京荣登世界冠亚军。霾表是红色的，世界是灰色的。回家后小女还喜笑颜开说今天短跑测验跑了全班第一，我顿时一阵肺痛。顺手转发出一篇《如果连发出声音都感到恐惧，那你活该吸雾霾》的文章……图片。

五分钟后接到老妈电话，表露出对我的人身安全极大的担忧，劝我少说为妙，爱子之心溢于言表。我振振有辞，俨然一个无畏的挑战强权的斗士，对不发声者表达了愤慨，仿佛老妈正如那文章所言的“你”。老妈无奈地吐出一句：“因为我们这一辈人都经历过惨痛的教训……”。

我猛然醒悟，也许，“他们”中的一些人不是不想说，不是不愿说，而是不敢说！反右斗争、文革，那些存在于小说、影视，或最多儿时渐渐模糊记忆中的一切，对我们来说是遥远和消失中的过去，对他们来说，却是记忆犹新的切肤之痛。“1984”其实不是科幻，而是活生生的现实，存在于四五十年前的过去，也一直存在于今天的各个角落。

我突然想到湿猴实验，像被淋湿的猴子一样打了一个寒战。

日子就像一个巨大的车轮，每天转动零点九八六三度，缓慢而艰难地前行。车轮碾过一些或重要或琐碎的人和事，却毫不停歇，一往无前。那些过去的人和事，幸运的话会在车轮上留下或深或浅的痕迹，随着车轮一路前行。有些慢慢被后继的痕迹覆盖，再也分辨不出。有些却愈发鲜明。就像今天这度，在二十七圈前，被无意刻下的一笔，却在以后的前行中越来越清晰、越来越深刻。

因为这一笔痕迹是如此与众不同，当初碾过时大地都在颤抖。也因为这转动的车轮，经历种种颠沛流离后才明白那道痕迹的意义所在。然而，颤抖很快平复，像其它事故一样，在车轮后渐渐远去，终于被匆匆赶路的人们遗忘。而它在车轮上留下的痕迹，在今天除了让人偷窥、让人唏嘘，却不能有任何的现实作用了。谁都明白，这老迈的车轮，负担着生活的辎重，在坎坷的前行之路上，没有心思去回味那些过去的蓝天白云、青草湖泊、日出日落和车轮上的痕迹了。

时间终于露出了狡黠的笑脸。

漫天飞雪后，终见云开日。纷繁微博间，寻回博客时。

2012，9月25，偶然发现我的博客可以访问了。难道GFW出现漏洞，抑或天朝大发慈悲？试探facebook, twitter, toutube, imdb依然墙外，看来这慈悲也仅是对我的小慈悲。更有可能是我高兴过早，兴许明天就又被打回墙内。拭目以待。

重见博客好比重见多年不见的老友，唏嘘感概。上一则博客已是几乎四个月前的那个仲夏夜所写。回顾近期，少有写博，除却被墙之原因，客观地说，更多还是因为自身的懒惰和时间被微博所蚕食。去年六月写过一篇批判微博，对微博粉碎并蚕食时间做过批判，没想到一年多后自己都无法摆脱，虽然还是常常做些无用的思想斗争。如今博客回来了，我没有理由继续在微博上消磨时光了。有些思考，不立即写下来就会遗忘。而写作的过程，恰好是提炼和升华思想的过程。我需要更多的、成块的时间来读书、思考和写作。